Yes, I know! I know!

I know I’ve been ignoring my blog but not on purpose. I love my blog! I wish I could write on it every single day. I especially love it since Tammy did the new design on it.

Besides not being inspired to write on the blog and just being too darned busy doing other things, well, the old blog sits idle and I feel horrible.

I am writing my morning pages, working on my creative nonfiction piece and dabbling with my novel in progress, I just can’t find the energy to sit and blog. Or, when I do have an idea to blog about, by the time I sit down to do it the “fire” is gone and I think, “Oh who cares anyway.”

The creative nonfiction piece and the novel in progress? They don’t even get the attention I want to give them. I only write on those two things during my writing group time; once a week for three hours and that is just not enough. I swear, I don’t know how successful writers do it; work a full time job, have a family, other commitments and they still find time to write and complete novels?! How do they do it? They must not sleep.

Plus, I’ve been reading a lot. I mean ridiculous-obsessive-a-lot. Escape-a-lot. I have so many books I could write reviews about it’s not even funny but I can’t even manage a simple book review for the blog. And when I do have any free time I find myself wandering around the house doing nothing much of anything, keeping myself occupied with petty little stuff when I could be sitting down to write. Gah, what is wrong with me? Oh well. I’m just typing out loud here.

Like right now, instead of being on here ranting about not having time to write, I could be writing. Heh.

Besides, do people still blog anyway? If so, what blogs do you read?

Good Reads

If you are on Good Reads let’s connect. I have signed up to read 24 books in 2011. Right now I have 10 under my belt since January and I give credit to my iPad (I use it mainly as an eReader). Last year I think I read a total of 2 books. I don’t know what it is about an eReader but I am eating up book after book.

I’ve been absent, a lot, on my blog. I know I have one artist interview to post and lots of book reviews. I just can’t find the time to update this thing lately. I want to be involved with my blog so I need to find time to make it happen.

Lately, I’ve been looking up how to set goals. First, though, I need to figure out what my goals are, realistic goals that is. But when I think about what goals I may want to achieve I normally talk myself out of them before I can even write them down because I don’t want to make a bad choice in any certain goal. In other words, I question myself about what goals are realistic or not. I normally end up telling myself that all of my goals are unrealistic and then I don’t get anywhere.

I’ve made some bad decisions in my lifetime and I don’t want to keep making bad decisions. I don’t want to fail so why start, right? I know, that is a bad attitude to have but I get in this analysis paralysis all the time. No wonder I don’t ever get anywhere.

So where do I draw the line in defining unrealistic versus realistic goals? That is a good question, something I need to ponder some more – really take some time out to meditate and think on this – not just let it roll around in my brain for an hour or two. But really take some quality time out and think about this whole goal setting thing, figure things out.

Here is just an example of what I think is unrealistic and realistic:

Unrealistic goal – become a successful published author (some of you might think, “Uh well Carol, with an attitude like that, then yeah, you won’t become successful). Well, it’s a lot harder and tougher than you might think. I’ve been around and I watch things; the news, the internet, other people. Most successful authors have money before they write their first page and they know people. Look at all the people who are famous BEFORE they even write their first book. And it seems that most successful authors also have writing degrees in creative writing, english, or an MFA program. I don’t have the time nor the money to take on such a venture. Remember, I am talking REALISTIC goals. Besides, I need to actually WRITE something before I think about trying to publish anything! LOL. Finding the time is another story.

Realistic goal – write a blog article once a week. Now that’s more like it. Maybe not as rewarding but it’s realistic.

Well anyway, at least I am reading a lot more than I used to. And that’s another goal (as stated earlier) to have read 24 books this year. Now maybe I need to add to my realistic goals to write the book reviews.

Look me up on Good Reads…..

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The Alabama Storms

I am not going to write up a big ole post about all the tornadoes. I just don’t have it in my right now to write a meaningful post. Quite frankly, I have enjoyed the limited disconnect from the world of internet. This is the first time I’ve been back on my laptop. I’ve been getting all my information (while the power was out) via Facebook on my cell phone.

Yes, Alabama has been hit hard. But everyone else is already posting about it so I have nothing else to add.

I also have nothing to add about the killing of UBL.

We have power at our house and we are some of the lucky ones not to have been affected/effected by the tornadoes. But I do know friends and co-workers who have been hit hard. My prayers and thoughts are with them today.