Dread. I always hate making these yearend inventory-taking obligatory lists. I usually avoid them like the plague but the last few days these very thoughts have been haunting me and I feel moved to post something now. I’m always afraid I won’t have anything good to report for the previous year but I think I can come up with at least a few.
I wish I could put my personal accomplishments on my work/career yearly evaluation that is also due at this particular time of the year, but I’ve got nothing to report work-wise.
But back to the personal gratitude list for 2010…..
1. In 2009, and with encouragement from a good friend, I signed up and trained for a half marathon. I ran my marathon on Valentine’s Day of 2010. So from September 2009 to Valentine’s Day 2010, I trained for a half marathon. I was disciplined! I worked hard. I signed up, stayed committed, and accomplished what I set out to do. I even quit smoking for that period of time, that’s how committed I was to doing this small event. It was awesome. I’m not so much grateful for actually running the marathon, although it was a blast, but I am more grateful for having the commitment to train and to finish something I started.
2. Getting control of my finances. I have implemented a plan to become debt free for 2011. I asked for help, inviting a friend of mine to help me create a spreadsheet and budget to get to my debt free goal. I carry around the spreadsheet with me all the time and check off my payments. The last few weeks I’ve gotten off course because of Christmas and whatnot but I know I can get back on track, now that I have had a taste of financial freedom. It is empowering, and liberating, to take control of financial matters.
3. Meeting new girlfriends! I’ve met some really nice women along the way, from various events and clubs and social media. My part time job has really opened me up to a lot of good people. Then there are my new writing friends; face-to-face writing group, and via Facebook. Some of the folks I haven’t personally met but we plan to someday. For now our online presence works just fine.
4. Weeding out the nonsense. I’ve been able to get rid of some things that aren’t working for me. Some of them are relationships and some are just personal beliefs. I am still working on getting rid of a lot of old thinking, of which I believe that sort of job will never really be completed. It is a continuous effort. But the fact that I am more aware of what is really going on inside my head and heart is a great beginning.
5. Making my mind up, being clear with what I want. Again, this is another thing that seems to evade me from time to time but it always comes back to writing. I know this is what I want to do more than anything in life, well, that and traveling. 😉 But during these last few days that this whole space-time continuum has been beckoning me, I will commit to something for 2011. That is another post for the near future, like maybe next week or after Christmas and closer to the New Year.
6. Facebook and Twitter – I’ve learned NOT to feed in my Twitter to my Facebook page. Nope. I use my Twitter account for short bursts of rants and venting from time to time and I don’t want that to be all over my Facebook. Besides, I find it annoying when others do the same, feed in their Twitter feed to Facebook. But in regards to Facebook only, I am grateful that I have learned to get a better handle on the whole social media thing. I’ve learned how to “hide” the nonsense of others and post my status updates that can be helpful, to both me and others. I’ve also gotten to communicate better with my extended family on Facebook. Plus, the Scrabble game on Facebook is worth it alone to create an account. 😉
7. Family life. I know, all the way down here at number 7. Heh. But this list was put together in no particular order. I’m just typing stuff as it enters my head. So family, yes, I have The Gent and two teenage kids. I don’t know if my parenting skills have gotten any better but I know it has gotten harder and tougher to be a parent. In that I mean, having to say “no” to my kids. Having to actually be a parent and stand up against what I think is bad for them, even when they want to play the video games, go spend the night and hang out, be on the phone at all hours of the night, go to places on the internet where they know they shouldn’t be, not buying anything and everything for them just because they ask and say they want it, these are just a few of the challenges I’ve encountered this year with my teenagers. I’ll keep the other stuff to myself and private as it should be. So yeah, being the parent who disciplines is not fun. But who ever said parenting was supposed to be fun. All I can say is THANK GOD FOR THE GENT!!! He is a Saint. He is steady and consistent and calm and logical. And he cares. The kids may not see it yet, but hopefully when they are grown and gone from the house, they will see the benefits of his teachings and love.
8. Dread. I am aware that just because I dread something doesn’t mean it is going to be terrible. In fact, most of the time is quite delightful. So I realize this about myself, that while my first response is, “NO!” or dread, gloom and doom, if I just pull myself together and go, show up, then I will participate and have fun.
2011? Bring it.